1. I was in a car with my friend. Tak pasal-pasal dia tetiba bagitahu yang dia pening nak uruskan hal kahwin awal tahun hadapan. His exact words were, "Macam menyesal pun ada nak kahwin ni." But not long before he realized his own poor choice of words, and quickly rephrased everything back. "Bukan menyesal, tapi rasa macam nak kumpul duit bagi banyak lagi, bagi selesa." Aku angguk, for the sake of keeping the conversation going. Aku faham ralat yang dia sedang hadapi. Sadly, that's just how things are. You can't have everything in life. You win some. You lose some. I told him how I really feel. Sebab ini kawan baik aku, dan aku tak ada apa benda yang nak dirahsiakan. "Sekarang bila aku kenal memana perempuan, aku jadi macam malas, tak minat, tak ada rasa apa-apa yang serius." Get this, love is the cheapest way out to make you feel you're worthy of another person’s affection. Tak perlukan apa-apa modal. And love is the easiest way to distract yourself as if you're actually doing or achieving something. Yeah.... right. Truth be told, since I'm doing so well in life (thank God for that), I don't care about love anymore. For real, I couldn't care less. I shifted all my energy toward things I do best now. And at the end of the day, I look at my bank account, I'm happy and satisfied. And that's when I realized, people ain't shit, and love definitely can wait.
2. "I enjoy doing occasional grocery shopping at the mall. It's the best place to crush my dream of ever getting married."
3. Jangan kawan dengan manusia yang bila kau suruh dia pilih A atau B, dia jawab, "that depends."
4. Me: cigarette and nescafe is a great combo.
Me to me: cigarette and cancer is a great combo too.
5. If anything, janganlah dengar nasihat tentang persahabatan daripada memana perempuan. Most of them don't even understand brotherhood.
6. I have a huuuuuuuuuuge crush on @Rockloe
7. I think I had my first real taste of adulthood when Ayah stopped working about a year ago.
8. It wasn't easy. Figuring things out on my own is not a fun process. Getting my shit together is a lot harder than I imagined it would be. I feel anxious all the time, and for a very good reason too. I have no clear direction on what to do next. I'm like a lost puppy, a cute one of course, trying to find my way out of this twisted, messy, tangled, cryptic chaos. Too much pressure, I'd say. But being the sole breadwinner teaches me a great sense of responsibility. So this is what it really feels like to take a good care of my family, I thought to myself. Tiring, yes, but one's gotta do what one's gotta do out of love and devotion. No wonder I never care about getting married any longer. I'm doing much bigger things, and I got too much on my plate already. I hope I don't derail off of this path. To always put family first, above all else. Even if that means sacrificing my own dreams. Money was, and still a big concern. But I'm doing great now. I certainly provide, well... enough for us. More important, thank God I'm not anxious anymore. I'm fine with an occasional headache though. Perhaps the only downside of this whole maturing experience is that I developed a new habit of not giving a fuck, in its truest sense. Wouldn't go as far as to say I have trust issues. But in a way, I honestly think people ain't shit. I'm pretty immune to people's bullshit. And I build a huge freakin' wall to detach myself from any kind of emotional attachment. Yes, it's a shitty (and kinda sad) state of affairs to be in. Alas, life goes on.
9. If anything, don't trust anyone with badly drawn eyebrows.
10. Sekali pandang, muka Ha Yeon-soo sebijik macam muka Lisa.
11. I rarely keep my interaction here on Twitter. Tweeted something, and a couple of hours or days later, poof--- I'mma delete it.
12. Bak kata Taylor Swift, "you look like my next mistake."
13. Twice's new song is starting to grow on me. Well... guess it's true. Play any song repeatedly and it will eventually get stuck in your head. I'm not against innocence, or high school-esque, or 귀엽다, or overly girly concept. Just not a big fan of it. You put 8+ members in a group, you'll get the cheerleader effect. Doesn't matter if it's a boy or girl groups, the effect remains the same.
14. Lazada is plain evil. One minute, I'm browsing through hair care products, and the next I'm thinking of buying an all-in-one computer.
15. I'm a little burned out already. Most of the newest K-pop stuff don't excite me anymore. This obsession can only go so far. The same thing happened when I first discovered Radiohead. And Butterfingers. And Coheed & Cambria. And Mew. And 65daysofstatic. I went all out to learn everything there is to know about them. Then I got bored. And I moved on to other things. Same goes for human interaction. Or emotional attachment. Or romantic relationship. But that's another story for another time.
16. I'm a simple man. I like Mad Max: Fury Road. I like John Wick. And Star Wars franchise. And Trainspotting/2. Tarantino's film.
17. If anything, jangan kawan dengan manusia yang mulakan ayat dia dengan, "I don't want to be THAT guy but......"
18. I don't get why most girls I've known love to use silent treatment as a defense mechanism. That shit is stupid. And that shit is annoying.
19. I meant to say 'it won't work'. Tapi tertaip 'mana maunye." Excuse, my Perak is showing.
20. Siblings were watching Revenge of the Sith together on iflix. What a proud moment.
21. There's something cringeworthy about car clubs gathering. Unless you're planning a massive orgy among members, well... understandable. If not, it's just stupid and pointless to just gather people together.
22. Aku sentiasa berharap orang yang sudahi tweet dia dengan unnecessary kah! got his dick stuck in a drawer or something.
23. I don't care what anybody says. Wearing bluetooth headset kinda makes you look like a douchebag.
24. I struggled to differentiate the usage between teeth or tooth in a sentence this morning. I'd be lying if I ever told you that I got my shit together.
25. Life don't always go my way, and I don't think I'm okay with that.